To be a better student - actually do homework and study this year (unlike last year).

To be a better employee - work harder to crank out lab data.

To be a better team member - study harder, work harder, go for gold.

To be a better friend - spend more time with people, be a nicer person, etc.

To be a better daughter - help out around the house more.

To be a better sister - spend more "together" time.

To be a better ____ (insert appropriate word here) - be less jealous, give in from time to time, spend more time together.

To be a better person in general - be nicer, be less obnoxious, be less awkward, etc.etc.

i find now that every time i feel like blogging, i'm always in a depressed/bad mood, so my entries come out making me sound like an confused, emotional kid (which i am, but i prefer to think otherwise). that afterthought inspired me to be more spontaneous and upbeat in my blog so i won't always sound dead. this might actually come out as creepy, rather than an attempt at optimism when i'm clearly not at this time.

REPORT CARD CAME YESTERDAY FOR ME! = EPIC WIN. :D
well, it's not really an epic win, because i didn't get straight a's, but close enough. it's the best score i've gotten since first semester freshman year, so i'm pretty pleased. i'll start to work the right way next semester to get those straight A's.

tomorrow's the first day of work! :D volunteer work at a research lab, organizing files, editing and reading research papers, and work with gel electrophoresis (if i'm lucky :D). i'm going to spend around 24 hours a week there, monday through wednesdays. yup, full-time work. my parents even called it "going to work" and are packing me a lunch and dinner o_o; so i suppose it's official.

after ending my work shift at 5 pm, i heat my prepacked dinner and eat while studying. then, my dad picks me up and drops me off at ELAC, where i begin my calc I class at 7:30 pm till 9:45. then i come home, shower, do stuff i want till when i want and then i sleep. repeat.

i'm going to begin drivers ed soon, when my dad gets around to agreeing to pay that obnoxiously large fee (or what he will consider it to be, once i tell him). then on the road i go! (hopefully, soon :D)

APENG/APUSH homework is really annoying me. i'm not ready for such complicated procedures. -_-; still a sophomore at heart! D: but i must work hard! :D

SATs.. since i'm not going to one of those overly-expensive tutoring places my parents keep insisting on enrolling me in, i'm going to self study. as i told people before the school year ended, i saw the horror in their faces as they ask in bewilderment, "b-b-but NO SAT PREP CLASS? HOW ARE YOU GOING TO STUDY FOR THE SAT?! WHY!?" i don't find the need to spend a few thousand dollars a summer just to sit in a classroom for several hours in a row taking similar version of the test over and over, when i can easily do so in the comfort of my own bedroom. i even made up my own study routine to learn vocabulary and reading and what other crap they test you on the test :D SO HAH, BEAT THAT. I'LL GET THAT 2400 WITHOUT SPENDING $2000. but it worries me just a little bit, too. the prep classes know the collegeboard. they've helped bring up scores of so many people. i'm just an inexperienced noob in the subject of SATs, so what would i know? i'll just study my hardest. we'll find out come the october SAT.

but i found out that the main problem i have is actually sitting through the darn thing. i can't do a test for 3 hours and 45 minutes straight without either a) falling asleep during it b) getting distracted or c) start daydreaming. my energy level drops really fast during it too, so i had to go grab a piece of bread in the middle of it last time i did it. of course, during the real thing, they're not going to have a loaf of bread sitting there so i can nibble on a slice when i feel fatigue. >.> got a 2010. there's a first for everything.

on a lighter note, if you actually got down to this far, i'm excited for the various events occuring this summer! :D pool parties, universal studios (maybe), mall trips, bowling, ice skating, sleepovers. AAAH! 8) ENDLESS FUN. probably the last fun we'll have before next summer.

HOORAY FOR SUMMER! :D
i'm in a better mood already (:

today was the last day of school!! :D at last, summer is here. i was pretty darn happy to turn in those heavy textbooks today.

the last few days of school were carefree, except that math test today. but let's put that aside:

we got shirts for ap bio! i love memory shirts. though i'll probably never ever wear them again and fill up a whole drawer in my bureau, i still love them and like to take them out and look at them nostalgically, reminescing those memories.

english was wonderful. we watched the remaining two final presentations. at the end of the last one, the group that was up began to recite a poem, quite ingeniously written after Walt Whitman's oh-so-famous poem from Dead Poets Society, "O' Captain My Captain." everyone shifted in their seats as they reached the end and in unison, we stood up on our seats and gave Cordero one final salute, "O' Captain My Captain!"

after one last big group hug including everyone in the class and hearing Cordero's final parting words to us, we relished the last few minutes of being in english honors and being sophomores.


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this school year's over. time to reform! D:< time to start working hard for junior year. time to seriously actually study hard hard hard for every single thing because that stuff really counts now. -_-;
need to stop procrastinating. and need to stop being a hypocrite.

THANK YOU, EVERYONE, FOR YOUR DELICIOUS CAKES, BIG HEART-SHAPED CRYSTAL, PIGGY-BANK, VARIOUS ARTICLES OF CLOTHING, SUNGLASSES, CLUTCH, CARDS, POEM, PURSE, BRACELET, STARBURSTS, SERGEANT QUACKS, & WISHES<333
I LOVE YOU ALL<333


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&& i'm sorry for being a bipolar bitch ('scuse my language). especially when i'm delirious, like last night when i just woke up suddenly. i don't mean the things i say when i'm half-conscious and going nuts from homework. i am so sorry, brendan and andrew.
i did not mean what i said yesterday/this morning.
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i have to say this again and again, even though you guys act so nonchalant about it.

i am so darn busy, i don't even know why i'm on xanga.

05.21 - OSB tryouts~
05.22 - Theme Trace Essay due + AP Bio Dessert Friday!
05.23 - Short English group meeting
05.24 - English group meeting
05.25 - English group meeting + Mall trip? + Form due
05.26 - SB tryouts~ + Wuthering Heights test?
05.27 - Math Quiz
05.29 - Jane Eyre Short Form due + OSB buzzer?
05.30 - Jenn's Super-early Sweet16 + picnic?
06.02 - Math Test
06.04 - Final Presentation (Great Expectations)
06.06 - SAT II Biology (E), probably
06.09 - 06.11 - FINALS

sorry, guys, if you're coming on monday. i might not be able to make it, depending on when the group is meeting ><; (lol we didn't really start and we're the first group). i'll pick up jenn's present later. i'm really sorry. i planned the whole thing and now i'm bailing. >.>;;

hoping to make the teams.
hoping to get a good grade in math.
hoping to get a good grade in english.
hoping to be able to hang out with people despite schedule.
hoping to get a good SAT II score.
hoping to still be alive after finals.